I’m in a rut lately.
Part of the problem is that I’m not in a playing situation that really excites me. I play at church, but the music that we play is not music that I really get excited about. I don’t listen to David Crowder, Chris Tomlin, Hillsong United, Steve Fee, Charlie Hall, or whoever in my car or on the treadmill, so it’s not music that I’m really interested in playing. Leading worship is a good thing, but it’s not a very satisfying musical experience for me.
This dissatisfaction led a few friends to form a band. We were all excited and practicing a lot, but then our drummer backed out on us. That kinda took the wind out of our sails for a while, but we then decided to concentrate on writing and developing more acoustic material. That was coming along okay when our lead singer Maury discovered that a tumor had been growing on his right big toe. He had most of said toe amputated a couple of weeks ago and he’ll be recovering for quite some time. Even when we’re able to start playing again, we’ll be limited to going and playing at his house for the foreseeable future.
Another seemingly failed venture is this royalty-free music thing that I may have mentioned. In a nutshell, I wrote 5 acoustic-based instrumental tunes for my wife’s photography website and based on some positive feedback that we received, we decided to offer them for sale to the public. They were publicized by a prominent family photographer from Austin, and we anticipated good sales. Unfortunately, the sales have been less than we expected. I realize that music is not necessarily a high priority for a photography business, but it’s disheartening nonetheless. It’s not like these songs are the pinnacle of my musical achievement or anything, but I’m happy with them, and I think that they are pretty much perfect for their intent.
I don’t know – the problem is that I just don’t have an outlet right now. I need to play some music that I actually want to play. I just want to play some too loud rock music with some friends through this monstrous amp that’s sitting idly in my office right now. I want to create something that I believe in and care about. I don’t want music to be connected to this funk that I seem to be in right now.
Man, I feel really lame for writing all of this, but I just needed to purge.